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.i know i couldnt have ask for a better youth comm'05. God has work in that camp and He has worked in all of our lives. i know that the camp experience will always be in our hearts and we were made stronger for future challenges. (:

i miss working with you guys. I REALLY DO! :D

25th Feb ;

i just want to say that you mean the world to me.
thanks for making an impact in my life. (:

Studying at airport is always fun and it is especially fun when you are having a good time with your friends. i am blessed and i am grateful for all the times we spend together. (:

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and i sing, i sing i love you so
for all you done
i will give my life to You.

YOU.

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so lets move on. Look back for the added confidence and let me fix my eyes on Jesus. For fear is something that can never surpass the greatness of God. Fear is only temporary and as long as i look upon You, i know i am safe in Your arms. It is for You and no one else. Let go,Let God. (:

because the world cant take away YOUR love.

i cant think straight now so i will just try to relate how i am feeling through this song.

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and
under the skyI promise you,
the answer will come

Hold on to patience
and watch for the sign
'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

-everything in its time

I can see clearly now the rain is gone.
I can see all obstacles in my way.
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind.
It's gonna be a bright, bright sunshiny day

Oh, yes I can make it now the pain is gone.
All of the bad feelings have disappeared.
Here is that rainbow I've been praying for.
It's gonna be a bright, bright sunshiny day

i see blue clouds in the skies..

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haha. i made a new friend. it is amazing finding someone that does have alot of the same values as you. At least NUS have really some nice people even though they may be from different faculties. well, we will see how things go. (:

Beautiful fountain. Though forlon yet so much alive inside. I was amazed by the beauty of it and just stood there looking at it while waiting for the bus.

it got me thinking...

i love sitting on long bus journeys and staring out of the window.

everything has its own beauty right?
i just wish pple could see what is within.
that inner beauty that shines even brighter than what is on the outside.

let me that light that shines ever brightly for YOU.
then maybe one day the way will be shown for me.
the purpose will be clear. (:

6th Feb ;

pictures are finally uploaded. 4 pple doing crazy things while waiting for a cab at the bishan taxi stand. i was yawning while doing the shocked face. DIAOZ. we even stood in the middle of the road to take a picture but that pic turned out too dark. HAHA. i had so much fun that night even though i couldnt talk. (:

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people change. i change too.
sometimes we tend to go on our own thinking that we can do it ALL.
sometimes we dont see it until we hit a dead end.
will it be too late?
just follow. look at the light in front of you and just walk.

though the red light slows me down
i will lift my feet off the ground
this is the journey
take this road if you wanna live.

An unchanging God. That is something that will never change. (:

i know things have changed.
but i did not expect it to be that bad.
distance can really pull pple away.
that is the REALITY of life.

i should start spending more time with them. (:

one day at the time.

lynn and i did medicure today. HAHA. i felt like a taitai sitting there and getting my hands pampered. I just wish that service could be better. :p

Lynn's ones are black and mine is pink. GOSH! i regretted not doing a bolder colour because that pink is like no different from my original skin colour. And the nail art? i dont really like BRIGHT pink flowers! nv mind! i am going to get nails repainted soon when i have money. (:

TFF reunites tonight. Great dinner but shopping spree was sooo unsuccessful. i didnt get anything today except for pretty star ear studs. BUT I GOT HIS NEW ALBUM!!! OOOOSH!!! i am soooo happy!!! (:

i just thought of sharing one of my favourite verses in the bible. i am sure alot of pple will share 1st Cor verses since today is V day. But i thought i would be different and share a bit of what i love. (:

there is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
- Ecc 3

Happy Valentine's Day.

it was a good night. swensens. bonding time. daisy flowers. pictures. earrings. bus down pasir ris beach. the walk along the beach. the full moon. our names carved onto the sand. it was simple but yet so beautiful. i have learn to see V Day in a different light today.

as i was staring at the full moon, i felt YOUR peace over me. it was like YOU were saying everything is going to be fine. i was marvelled by how sometimes a quick reminder from YOU never fails to keep me going. (:

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i see the same side of the moon.
wherever you are, i hope you had a wonderful Valentine's Day.
i know you will be everything that God wants me to have.
it is only a matter of time..

11.05 pm ;

'I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles with lemonade'
-little superhero girl

maybe it is time that i learn how to fly...

Five weird/random stuffs you need to know bout me...

1) i think i am camera shy. ( i dont like seeing myself on videos/tv.)
2) my favourite vegetable is bean sprouts. ( okay! i know alot of pple hates this the most.)
3) the only soup i love drinking is campbell cream of chicken.
4) My childhood dream was to go to America to study.
5) i accidentally killed a rabbit when i was in Pri5. i was in a pen filled with rabbits in our school's ecogarden and i took a step backwards and stepped on the rabbit's head. it died within minutes. i ran home crying and i threw that pair of shoes away. ( OKAY DONT LAUGH!)

by Farisa's request, i have wrote down 5 things about myself. (:

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THE WEEKENDS ARE HERE!!!!! OOOHLALA! (:

pls pray. pls pray. i need my voice by saturday. i am suppose to be backing up bryan for worship. And after three days of been voiceless, i am beginning to lose hope. it is horrible not been able to talk and communicating through a pen and paper.

i am lagging behind soooo many readings in school now. GOSH! i cant believe i am actually in the library studying. Library is like the only place in NUS where i can find solace in. i just love sitting here and just having some alone time with myself. (:

i will def. miss the libraray. The rest is goodbye. :)

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catch up with gin, nessa and xuan was great.
lovelove. :D

when i get my voice back, i am going to talk more than usual.

OKAY! it sucks being voiceless. period. if you really want to hear me say a word loudly, i have to strain myself to say it. i have to go school tml and be a mute. that is going to be something interesting. (:

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maybe someday, after a few million years
we'll have some moments alone
we can sit for awhile and make clear
all the things i never known
there are plenty of questions
but so little time
but one thing that cant seem to get off my mind

for the life of me
i cannot understand why you love me like you do
for the life of me
i cant comprehand
why i mean so much to you
but maybe someday and forever
the answer will be clear to see
you did what you did, all for the life of me.

how could your love, that is perfectly prue
reach someone so far away
and how could the stains of the choices i made
be forgiven in the grace
but love have no boundaries
and grace only sees
the person you always knew i could be.

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i crucified you many times but YOU are still here.
grace and love. - that is all that i need from YOU.

YOU did what YOU did
all for the life of me

my dad spent 50 bucks on my medical fees today!!!! i have 8 types of medicine to take right now!!! omg omg. that is like CRAZY!!! hahah. it feels weird not been able to talk at all. at least today in church, i could speak in my 'manly' voice but right now, the voice is completely gone. AMAZING!!! (:

as i look back, i really thank God for giving me the strength that was needed during these past few days. it was not easy because of the no of hours we practised and the lack of sleep. i hate been sick but i thank God this time that he made me sick at the right time. (after youth jams)

youth jams - be glorified. to God be the glory. (:

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'it is not the activities and programmes we plan that will sustain the growth in powerhouse. More importantly, i think we need to show others that we truly care and are concerned about their lives as true brothers and sisters in christ. ' - KN

that really had a great impact on me today. the greatest commandment is love. so i want to learn to love as much as i find it hard to love. church isnt all about admitting that we are sinners and we are all unworthy. but it is because He first loved us that is why we should learn to love others. love defines what true christians should be. we are not an organisation that meets up every week but what defines us different from these organisations is our love for God, our love for others and our love for ourselves.

embrace the love. (:

11.30 pm ;

We tend so often to be controlled simply by our own experience. The one thing that gripped and held Paul, to the exclusion of everything else, was the love of God...

When we are born again by the Spirit of God, our testimony is based solely on what God has done for us, and rightly so. But that will change and be removed forever once you "receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you . . ." Only then will you begin to realize what Jesus meant when He went on to say, ". . . you shall be witnesses to Me . . . ." Not witnesses to what Jesus can do that is basic and understood but "witnesses to Me . . . ." We will accept everything that happens as if it were happening to Him, whether we receive praise or blame, persecution or reward....- Osward Chambers

my utmost for my highest. may the glory be solely for you and may you be glorified. compel us with your love and let us bless others with what you have done for us. (:

let go, let God.

i am terribly sick. yesterday night was super horrible.the fever is getting to my brains. i woke up many times because i was feeling hot and cold at the same time. the throat hurts like hell too. darn it. and in the end, i am stuck at home and i din go to school today. :(

it is like when i really want to go school, something bad has to happen. BLEH! i am just really unlucky.

i cant fall sick at this time. not now, pleasssse! i need to getwellgetwellgetwell.

back to sleep.

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the sun is over the city,
but it's a orange day
There is reason for looking up,
but I'm feeling down
You see I've got to catch a plane,
won't buy a ticket
Cause it's hard to just stop,
when you're spinning around

new layout. (:

chinese new year is over and it is back to school. these few days have been rather hectic with dance practices and many many visitations. i just wish that cny didnt have to pass so fast. i won quite alot this year so i am really happy. (: HAHA.

it is going to be a tough week ahead with youth jams ahead. let YOUR will be done. let me dance for YOUR glory. (:

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close your eyes
make a wish
this could last forever